Poems

 

Whose more wrong
Me or you? You want me here to stay
But your situation tells me that you want me to fall in line.
But I’m curious
To know what makes these girls go insane
I wanna know every way .
I’m coming over to your place
I’m already on the way ,
My nigga driving me insane,
And your other bitches was lames.
You ain’t even gotta say shit.
All alone we turn off our phones all the way
we head straight to foreplay.
Our connection was insane.
But we stuck in this phase
I know something is in the way ,
You ain’t even gotta shit.
I said babe just tell me the truth.
And you said just have ya cake and eat it too.
Our connection was so insane
But something is in the way.
Your driving my ass insane .
You know you don’t have to play.
if you want me to leave em just say it.
He said just relax and just enjoy ya time.
I said How long we gonna play this game?
Because you know my nigga don’t play.
We can do everything ya way
Just as long as you don’t say shit.
And if you got a girl just say it.
He said just have ya cake and eat it too.
You said it’s not the right time.
But the timing is perfect. You rather lie
Then tell me why it’s not the right time.
But something tells me someone else is in line.
I said babe just tell me the truth.
And you said just have ya cake and eat too
We doing the most , going out of town so nobody knows.
You rather lie and tell me baby we gonna have our time.
But my nigga driving me insane.
I’m done playing the games.
He said my girl is in the way .
The shit is in the game and
I thought ya nigga aint play shit ?
@tearsof_art
Inspired by Anne Mae summer Walker.

 

 

 

Questions

 
Where do we go from here?
I don’t even know where to start. Should I just end it right here?
Am I driving myself crazy or am I seeing things clear ?
I just need to know how you feel.
But if I ask would you even keep it real?
Why is everything so up in the air?
One minute you here, next minute you not.
Where’s all the love you claim you got?
Does somebody already have that spot?
This isn’t fair to me. I just wish you give me some clarity.
One day you distant and then the next day you talk about marrying me.
Are your feelings me making you scared of me?
 
 
Or maybe he thinking she ain’t the one for me. but she a vibe I can really use her company.
We gonna be good until she falls in love with me. Anything more and shit gonna get rough for me.
 
Why can’t I figure you out? Trying to get in your head is stressing me out.
Is it the fear that’s bringing me doubt?
Maybe my pain ain’t all the way out.
Maybe I should give you the benefit of the doubt.
But I know how it feels to be left in a drought.
I know when a nigga just running his mouth.
That’s was my ex that’s all he about.
He the one that ate my heart out.
Maybe the shit you do got me reminiscing.
You could be the one maybe you different.
Am I hurting or are you just tripping?
Did you feel anything when was kissing?
Is It me or is it the distance? How are you gonna be with me then forget me?
Tell me what it is or what isn’t.
Because when I stop asking questions yo gonna wish I didn’t.
& when I don’t give a fuck you gonna say I’m tripping?
Even with this mind, it would hurt my feelings if I had to say goodbye.
can you be the one or am  I Ignoring all the signs?
 
@ Tearsof_art

 

It’s quarter to four, & I just want one more.

You can tell me what you want.

But I know you ain’t the one.

I know you gonna lie but I’m just being dumb.

Too much potential will make you love a nigga.

& I got too much,  which is giving excuses to make me think
that you will change when I know that you won’t.
And I know this ain’t ya fault because I play my part.
I know you just a dog I let you do me wrong.
Make me want to be on one &
Get on some shit. I know that will win you over.
But too much potential will make you think you love a nigga
& I got too much, which is giving me excuses
to make me think you love me when I know that you don’t.
I know if I give my all
you’ll never do your part.
Make me want to be on one and get on some shit & let that nigga come on over.
I’ll say too much patron had me calling his phone,
had me on what you on.
had me craving something more.
Too much potential will make you faithful to a nigga,
which is giving me excuses to think I’m wrong if I fuck em
when I know he will play his part when you’ll just break my heart.
But being alone will have you calling his phone
have you trying some more. Have you loving on him more.
@tearsof_art
 Inspired by Drunk dialing by Summer Walker

You were the right  person at the wrong time

 If the circumstances never changed.

then you would be mine

maybe if I wait around,

 maybe someday we will align.

What if the time wasn’t on our side? 

Or Maybe we live in two different times.

What if our love outgrows? 

Maybe you will just turn into somebody that I used to know. . 

But my heart can’t let it go. 

My heart pleads If I lead. You will eventually follow behind.

 

If our hearts match, then maybe our souls are blind.

We have been here 1,000 times. But 1000 and one more won’t stop us from ignoring the signs.

The attachment of you being mine,  makes me feel the illusion of time is what makes us divine.

And If time is an illusion,

then it wouldn’t matter if we got it right the first time.

as long as we are alive we can give our love another try.

But if time is an illusion, why would things die?

Why is there a such thing as wasting time?

 What is the science behind the stars, the sun and how things align?

Maybe the love so deep that we can’t accept the fact that we are wasting time.

So we convince ourselves that

the next time would be the right time.

@tearsof_art

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

What he poured into me.
Lies, inconsistency and selfish means.
Gave me a shoulder, but I can never lean.
Feeding me broken promises.
Opening & creating wounds that will always sting.
I stick around with hopes he will make my heart sing.
I’m accustomed to high hopes & waiting for someone to notice me.
Waiting for the phone to ring, waiting for my dad to notice me.
 
See we just playing roles.
I just listen to what I’m told even when the shit gets old.
Even when my heart turns cold.
I just still hold on to hope.
I always hear you out. Your stories make enough sense, to allow you to walk in and out.
My childhood was the reason your chances never ran out.
Your dad’s shitty ways are the reason why this is the only shit you pour out.
Overflowing from your spout,
and somehow your fucked up ways, is tipping from my spout.
I’m overflowing with inconsistencies.
Running for dear life when someone shows interest in me.
Ghosting people that may be good for me
Ignorning messages when he says he misses me.
Because I don’t have the heart to tell him he’s too mushy.
What he poured into you,
you poured into me. Now I’m overflowing with heartbreaks and inconsistency.
When I pour into him that’s when this cycle repeats.
 
@tearsof_art
The child who could
Do you remember the days when people ask you
what do you want to be when you grow up?
That was probably one of your favorite questions to answer as a child.
Just the thought of speaking of your dreams made you happy.
You would stand up tall with your head held high, smiling ear to ear.
A voice that was filled with confidence. 
You would say when I grow up
I’m going to be a doctor, an astronaut, an actor, a singer or I’m going to be famous.
You didn’t care who was around or what anybody thought.
In your heart, you knew you could be anything in this world.
You were innocent
you were fearless.
Life was limitless and the sky was the only thing that could limit us.
 
Let’s fast forward to adulthood. Things didn’t turn out so good.
You feel lost and may be misunderstood.
Your favorite question to answer as a child has become torture as an adult.
“
What do you want to do with your life?” They asked.
It’s hard for you to answer them.
You become hesitant, embarrassed.
You’ll tell someone you want to be a doctor when you want to be an actor.
A nurse when you know you were made to be a model.
But you keep that part of you bottled.
Letting society and family expectations bother you.
And you ask yourself do I please them
or do I focus on what I am made to do?
Sometimes we think we have to be a kid again to live a life of abundance.
We pray we can go back in time to feel alive.
but doing so is only a waste of time.
To feel alive.
You must set yourself free,
because the past is behind us.
You can’t be a kid again and you can’t get back your innocence.
But you can relive the experience.
You can be fearless again
You can live a life full of abundance.
You can’t go back in time
but you can never let your inner child die
Hold your head up high.
spread your wings and fly
Let your inner child come alive
life without faith is what causes us to die
@tearsof_art🌹

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

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Photo By Mark Manson

She gave people the benefit of the doubt.

Embracing doubt that leads to you to kick your intuition out.

People send you warnings but you don’t hear a sound

and even though it’s more ups than downs, more cries than smiles.

It’s the potential that keeps you around.

It’s the potential that mute the sounds,

the weight that holds you down.

You were made to swim

but all you can do is drown.

Scared someone else will come around.

So you keep him around even tho you’re burnt out.

You fear that everything you built in your relationship will end in a drought.

 

 

 

 

Something tells you that if a new person comes along the efforts that you put in him will be the reason his new relationship workouts.

 

Photo By: ChloexBowie on DeviantArt

As you pour yourself out, you ignore your doubts,

you’ll hit the ground, a new love will be profound.

You’ll love yourself once you get off the ground.

He will love the women that will risk herself to keep him around.

You gave people the benefit of the doubt.

Embracing doubt that leads to you to kick your intuition out

. But once you hit the ground, everything you lost will be found,

Everything you want in love will come around.

Once you hit that ground your true love has been found.

@tearsof_art 🥀

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For once you wanted someone who would listen to you and show you love and affection.

Someone to take the time out to really give you what you need.

But you were too hurt to understand what you had in front of you. You didn’t give yourself time to heal so you viewed your new relationship

as if it was your previous one. This caused you to be ungrateful when you should’ve been grateful.

To be insensitive when you should have been sensitive.

You didn’t have the energy to fight for someone who was good for you because you lost your energy putting into the person who was bad for you.

The love they gave you wasn’t enough because you still fill empty from your last relationship.

When things went wrong you couldn’t help but to blame yourself subconsciously. But to make yourself feel better you pointed the finger at them to take away from the empty filling.

The empty filling wouldn’t go away so you needed someone else outside of your relationship to make you feel whole.

It’s not that your partner didn’t have enough love to give you just didn’t have enough love in you to see it.

When you get that temporary filling back and you come back to your partner and see their efforts it’s too late.

They know what you did

and the empty filling you had they now have. They will always feel that their love wasn’t enough.

They will question why you failed to work harder for your relationship,

but in reality, you were just too empty. You lose something good and you start feeling that maybe you deserved that heartbreak

. So you punish yourself by being with people that will hurt you.

We all fuck up ,

but no one deserves to be mistreated.

We all just have to heal and pour love into ourselves to avoid unhealthy relationships.

We all have to lose something good in order to appreciate something good when it comes back to us.

Because no matter how much we fuck up we will always get another opportunity to get what we deserve.
@tearsof_art🥀

I put you on the pedestal.
I know what you been through. I know what to stay away from so I
don’t ever cross you. I put a shield on your heart, so no one can ever hurt you.
Our connection was so deep. When You hurt I would I hurt too.
Maybe I was too caught up in my views.
Maybe We were missing a few screws.
You were hurt when you saw me cry over other dudes. But when you were the one causing the pain somehow my emotions couldn’t reach you.
You became distant the second I opened up to you.
But when I called you on your bluff I was being too emotional.
Maybe I’m taking shit too personal
Maybe it’s not your fault maybe you just don’t know.
But you heard all the stories so I know you know
You use to wipe my tears telling me “ I deserve better but when started acting like them
you told me to keep my head up!
You got it in your head that what you’re giving me is better. Or you being selfish either way it ain’t no better.
Damn, right I’m bitter. You know better. You know all my triggers.
I’m trying to treat you different but you acting so familiar.
You mother fucking right I’m bitter you right I’m triggered.
I want to hit you right now. Why I left myself fall?
I should’ve seen the signs  I ignored them all.
I’ll calm down eventually.
All this energy
You must envy me
You no friend to me
I’m triggered when I  see your face. I’m triggered when I hear your name.
Please Stay the fuck out of my way.
You’re the enemy,
I can’t see this differently.
you did this intentionally
You know my triggers.
Who am I kidding I believed every lie. I battled with myself a million times.
Go figure
you posed as my friend.
You studied all of my triggers.
This what you wanted so you just as bitter.
I’m triggered.
But be careful how close you hit the triggers.
There’s another spirit inside of me and she’s the one who pulls the trigger.
Might fuck around and call you a bitch buss you upside your head on some shit
You might end up unconscious and shit.
Won’t feel no remorse because you asked for that shit.
You’re bad energy
You bring out the worst in me
This ain’t good for me
We ain’t meant to be.
This shit is history.
  • inspired by Jhene Aiko

When You’re Sober.

Liquor weighing heavy you was in your bag and your in your emotions talking heavy . Saying that you love me and the distance weighing heavy .

got a dose of real love got scared and you knew you wasn’t ready .

You put bitches before me cause you wish you can forget me . Knowing deep down they ain’t fucking with my energy .

My heart beating fast while you speaking through that Hennessy .

But when you wake up in the morning you not gonna have that same energy.

I valued the time that you spent on me .

I don’t know if it was real or if it was just vulnerability

Even if I was sober I would say I feel the same . Wake up in the morning and shit won’t be the same . Emotions on the table but the dynamic stayed the same. Gonna play it cool because the shit is the game. I know how niggas act when that liquor hit they veins . Now I gotta pretend like nothing ever changed . I gotta play it cool until you get drunk again.

@tearsof_art🥀

More Than Pretty.

If it wasn’t for my hips, thighs and pretty brown eyes, would you even try? If it wasn’t for my pretty face and my Carmel skin, would you even listen?

Don’t pretend now that you’re listening.

I know I’m pretty I get it. Behind this pretty face behind my pretty skin dig deep from within.

Deeper than someone you can show off to your friends. Or that creepy grin when you imagine bending me over & having my legs on your shoulders.

What about me?

I’m not on here to keep you company and make you look good because you cuffed me.

Dig into my soul and you’ll be lucky.

All the tears I cried to seeing kids living a life I barely survived.

Low self-esteem, abuse neglect, maybe even suicide.

Look into my brown eyes and see me

For my vibes, my aura, and energy.

If you took that time, you’ll be able to sense all the days that I’m drained from

Pouring out my energy.

Putting my self last to stop people from having the same feelings I had.

Because they don’t have anyone, so giving up my energy, can’t be too much to ask.

So as we sit together and laugh

I just have to ask look at me for me.

I am more than my beauty.

I am a warrior, a healer

I am the voice of reason.

@tearsof_art🌹

One Heart, One Mind, Two Loves, One Choice

You won’t tell me your intentions, but begging for all my attention. You were on some bullshit I’m stupid because I was for it.
I knew what you could do I knew what you would do, and when it happened I had no choice but to face the truth.
So what am I suppose to do? do I choose me or do I choose you?
My heart and mind are battling with each other. My mind telling me one thing and it’s going in one ear and out the other.

This wasn’t what it was supposed to come to. But I was hurt and you were hurting too. When I was down you always came through.
Fuck what they say I knew deep down inside you was a good dude.
People kept asking me what did I get myself into, but my biggest defense was, they didn’t know you like I know you.

You were so ruthless and abusive and I accepted all of your excuses.

When the excuses stopped I prepared them for you, apart of me hated you & the other half of me adored you.
Was it me or was it you? All these emotions got me confused.
Is this even worth it? Am I settling or do I deserve this?
In my head I’m thinking, I can do better while my heart is screaming no relationship is perfect.
Because you needed me like I needed you.
The question is what are we gonna do? Either we going to work things out or we through.

Then I looked myself in the mirror and asked myself. What am I going to do? I understand you were hurting and I was hurting too. I know you need me but I need me too. I choose me Not you. This wasn’t what this was supposed to come to, I love me more than I love you.🌹

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9 thoughts on “Poems”

  4. Tyasia D

    This is beautiful and deep to the core. I can feel the energy of love in this for yourself as well as your lover. Enjoyable alluring choice of words look forward to hearing more. Thank you thank you *snaps fingers in applause*

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